what is the meaning of true LOVE??

LOVE is something that can force???LOVE is something that sad??LOVE...LOVE WHAT IS THAT!

WHAT IS THE TRUE MEANING OF LOVE...

when what happen on yesterday 26 feb 2009 the meaning of LOVE have started disapear in my mind..

why..izit my fault again ah..i already give up why why still want hurt yourself izit you want me back to you??izit you wan everyone to guity me only you will let go???haiz...that time i already tried my best to tell him not to do that..i call him,sms him but why!izit if you really love me you will do all this kind of thing to make me feel sad???haiz..why cant we just become friend??why want to untill whole world blame me only you will happy??WHY!!!???im not going to care you anymore..if you want to do something that hurt yourself is your problem!

i promise myself will look proberly that guy that really bring me happy not sad..

you are the one who make me sad and hurt!

and i want thanks my friend y.j cause she is the one who teach me and comfort me that time thanks a lot!!!

i will continue walk the jouney on my own now...huh...finally i can realese my preasure.
just like a song from sam lee "yan di xin kong" got one part is writted use 3 years to understand each other but use 3 min to end one relation...

the sad day come to me..

haiz...only because i din reply his msg..haiz..izit what thing i do i also wrong???and what thing he do is correct!yesterday..



i already try my best to reply him when i singing k that time..but the problem is no network!haiz i already sent more then 10 msg but also cannot sent out..



after 3 hour..o thought my hp got problem..cause i cant call him and not even one msg his reply..and i know the problem is his switch off his hp and 6pm someting he tell me that 'izit very diff to find someone you want but cannot' GOD izit my wrong again ah!!!
i really hope the boy that i love understand my situation lo..and not treat me like that!! i got tel him i go sing k he should not disturb me that time!
that time i really so down.. and i tell him that leave alone..

i also dont know what happen to him...and reply me..but that msg i only read once and i delete it..cause i know if i read 2nd time im sure more sad,down and i really scare i will cry..so i only know that the end of our relationship is on 22 feb 2009..haiz..i cannot promise myself to keep our relation better..haiz..anywhere even not really easy to let go but i think is better we just let it go then continue to argue..i promise myself not to find him or reply his msg anymore...i want forget him..i really dont want that kind of thing repeat again..im so scare

and today...24 feb 2009
j.h find me and ask me what is the problem..actually im not really want to think back already..but i just tell him our relation is over..and she ask me view his blog but i tell her i dont want but she just ask pls so im coming to library but i 4get his email..so..it GOD..'j ding' everything..

i need a rest...

i hope that O.T.W.C manager will call me for work...so i can forget everything..

NEW DAY,NEW LIFE!

19 feb 2009 dont know count as happy or sad...

erm...he told me lo..he told me near mid valley cinema there he like me..and ask can start now or not..he told me 2 years is quiet long..bt wen he told me that he like me so many quetion appear in my brain..someyhing like izit he treat other girl using the same matter???but i..din ask him cause i know sure will argue again..so i just keep in my heart ...

i reject him..i only can tell him sorry...that time i really blank blank blank..i also dont know what answer i should give him..i feel wanna cry and just run away
..but..i didnt do that...

but happy also when he told me...so sweet..hehe thanks..but i tell myself if he tell me the 2nd time i will say YES..hehehe..

and whole date day is NO MOOD lo...

i went to night market at night buy so many thing and also very tired..huh..


at night when he call me...
got a bit jealous when he told me about that gurl in his working place

hope our relation wont end so fast...

14 feb 2009..valentine

huh...today 1.30pm start going mid valley that time..walau that bus full untill gila nek..so me and my jie jie take cab to go..huh..when reach there so many ppl..and i walk with 'him
2 hour..den i find my friend h.t n chat more then 1 hour..den

5pm i went to find some present but that promoter..i wait more than half and hour he also duwan peduli me..i angry untill go..

then i decide to buy wallet for him la..for replacement..so hope wed can give him lo..mayb buy necklace gua..around 80 bux neh.huh..then i call him to take that present lo..and sumore wan yim sam yim sei lo..then we walk 20 minute then i go bac lu......

so tired la..but walk alone that time see all the couple hand holding flower also got a bit jealous de..
nvm la..he work mah..i can understand de...

back bone so pain...........

8 feb 2009

huh...so long din write blog already..so many things happen..the result i with him is he ask me think lo..i really scare later when i found i really dont have feel i scare to let go..haiz...duno see how la..
ermm 2day morning 11am my friend mk n sc find me go out eat breakfast..a bit xiang nian last time in school haha..and 1pm that time we all gamble in my hsu loo..win a bit oli la..hehe...when my friend play rm10 and she get 'one love' and luckly me 15 n lari haha..and then yj come..

4pm...
i went out with her go mamat shop 'yam cha'..talk so many thing..huh...reli many..and then me and her gila untill cycling whole old town..wuoh..but reli enjoy tat feeling..hehe..and we went to our teacher hsu talk so many thing...so geng..ass oso pain..i name tis as "one hour trip in half of the old town"hehe..stupid...

sometime i really think if really got chance, i really hope to plan a trip...go anywhere..that really can keep our relation.but i just hope la..see how la..hope really can la!!