28 maY 2009

so boring everyday sitting at home haiz..sien untill die..huh just now saw back that friendster msg sent from his..erm i dont know whay feel like want forgive him but scare la..huh..better not anymore..now i really can forget him already i dont want those thing happen again scare..i will delete the massage now..hope he wont find me..i forgive him..but friend i dont think we really can be anymore..so boring 

my dad today ask me one quetion when i want to study..i said im still finding..ask me go borrow from auntie say easy la..not he paid!huh..nvm la..see la..

huh...23 may 2009

sometime myself also duno what i want to  do...

go working or college..but..now really no m

ood to study..i  really hope too//but..i scare to step my first step cause i scare i choose the wrong r

oad like last time.....really scare..huh..sususu

today is my 3 time working saw many different people

 in the world..really..and today i write wrong that stoc

k name  is the 2 nd time wrong already..huh..

hope no 3rd time...my supervisor is a quiet nice person...haha...tommorrow got to continue..but n

ot really feel boring la..cause freeeeeeeeeeee..haha..can eat,chit chat,go out sibuk..haha..but not when got customer la..haha

today the selling quiet good...but i still cant remember the shoe name la..aggggg

-sola

-square toe(s.t)

-m.o.d collection

-active lifestyle(a.l)      

-aloha wave 

  

this haha the most cheaper la...rmBAnana PEEL name+(sola**forlorn)

-men basic

-men fluid

-men urban

-men suffer

huh... i like this slippers..cause is expensive haha and good quality .. (men suffer**high and mighty)                                                                            

 

haha..can already..finally can remember..but actually still got the small name of each shoe this want is just a group name...huh...mati...i'll try my best...

20 may 2009..

haiyo...so boring la..huh...really jealous all my friend that study already..i feel i really wasting my time sit at home!!!what i can do accept then study..huh...really want to teach kindergarden meh...my sister suggest me to teach kindergarden..but i scare la...scare teach wrong thing huh..really sien..

i thought want  to go that MIIM college to take a look..but lazy la..and nowdays sleep untill sooooooooooooooo late!!!huh...dont know la..but really no mood to study!find job..and get some money frist la...

somemore now got to pay for streamyx 60 buxs,last time my sister give me those money i also finish use ..dont know la...'sun ke chi yin la'

give me rm5000 everything can settle ...huh..WORK!

18 may 2009

huh...erm..althought is tired but feel really happy with my working place..know them only 2 days but they really very nice...

after work at 'banana peel' i found that this work really got many different people..some are nise,some are cool,some are funny..

when i start my 1st day work got one customer asking me a very challenging quetion 'what is the special of banana peel' walau..play me mek...huh...i just introduce those shoe for him..then he also lazy to listen and go away..baga!play me ..

but really happy la..but salary so little  only..hope to work 3days but got to help my mom...see la..

huh...15 may 2009

found another college nama 'MIIM',but they only receive 40 student..scare..kena tipu again ..really scare so i must be careful this time..the place no really know at where around setiawangsa area..erm maybe go by bus and LRT lo...hope this time success la...huh...my god...really scare...huh...i really hope i can study..but..then..dont know la..just do what i can do la...huh...erm..tommorow  is my 1st day work at 'banana peel' in the early is a bit confuse to read that "peel" word..but now i think i know already...hope i can stay longer for this job..cause what i need now is money to pay back my sister and my mother,and also to pay my register fees..i dont know why my mom didnt scold me when she heard about that college wont return back that money maybe she understand how she scold me also cannot get back gua..my english really teruk,hope that when i ...if i can study that college can brush up my english language..haha...

hope the journey of my life wont so difficult to walk la... 

14 may 2009...

so tired!because of that SRI college!!!!haiz...make me have to find other college!!really no brain la!!! last minute already!haiz...if i know i better go TAR college...haiz..now only left 2 days..many college start next monday!how la!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!duno la..maybe go for work 1st la..no choice haiz..no ones want to help me!
do so many reseach on web....but all so far,expensive...the only way is if got a big gold drop from the sky..then everything can settle!haiz...dreaming la...die!very tired and no mood to study le...

bad luck 2009!

9 may 2009

 younger cousin brother...

  my cousin sister..busy eating crab..yamm..yamm

see both of us..gila already.

 my 3rd jie,me and my coursin brother

erm... eat dinner with auntie pui and auntie sharon family..a bit far from my house la..so my dad start say my mom...next time if my auntie ask we out he dont want go already cause 1st expensive..2nd not nice,but i feel ok la..especially the crab!erm..when go back that time my dad sesat already...but finally can know cause got sign board.so hungry that time...whole family..im the only one who eat crab...huh...almost $$100..

9 may 2009...

breakfast..

tq tq...

me and ys..
see this yj really ntg to do lo..
can you see NO ENTRY!

today volunteer at kwan yin tin...erm..a bit boring la..cause like a dog watch that dog...erm...got give one uncle scold la!!and when i ask them enter from the front door they give so many reason say my son la,my daughter what what what la..huh...chong zhi is boring la...me and yj stand there also dont know do what..haiz...but nevermind la.cause untill 1.30pm we went back le...

haiz...get one lost one..8 may 2009

get a job lost rm700..haiz...sei la sei la sei laa..how to tell my parent???especially my dad.shit lo..i plan to give myself but then i need 3 month..they wont believe me wan..tel or not?tell or not?sei sei sei la...how??????today that fellu call me.and tell me that she already settle everything for me and i can start next week..but i already no mood to study there!!!haiz..say open that class for mee..how?study?dont want?study?rm700 leh.....i dont know la./././baga baga baga!

argue!!!!!!!

haiz...i tell myself not to study that college anymore!!!even didnt pay back also im not going to study!!no no no!!!!!!!!never!!!

my stupid jie fu so 8 po!!!always sibuk into other people bussiness thought he very brave!!!baga!!!!only know how to scold me say me!!!!say what wanna scold that fellu!!!i tell YOU!!YES im not DARE!!! because im not that kind of person!!what also scold scold scold!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!maybe it can use others way to solve it!!!!why must use that way!!!haiz!!!thats why everytime i wont tell him my thing, cause he only know scold scold scold!!!!!but my jie jie will tell !!!!!!im not going to tell mine thing to them anymore!!! only know scold!!!scold can solve the problem!!!only will make the problem become worse and worse only!!!haiz...BAD MOOD!!!!really BAd!!!is that anyone trying to play me???im also a  human..cannot tahan anymore...haiz............

no one understand me...

i know i wont so lucky! 7 may 2009

i know already!!so much time,money i put in that college but finally..what i also didnt get!!!!!i reAlly really happy when know that i will start study next week..but now??all gone..now i realize that when you want to get something is very difficult..maybe its take you many days,or even many years...but when you are success or you get that thing ,if you arelucky maybe you only have to wait few days..but if you are not it can take back everything that you try very hard to get in a minute or even a second...huh...how come my life is like that de....really sad la..huh..

yesterday i already feel something gonna to happen and i know it should't be a good thing...and today when i went there..really lo..that counsellor told me..that i have to change course..and ask me change to bussiness,she told me 70% are similar as mass comm..but i really cant force myself to study something that i dont like la..really cannot...haiz...everything just like from a top drop to a bottom...my heart really really pain..who can help me???????no one...what to do find anothere college la...no a big problem(lie myself)...haiz...

really feel don't want to study.. so tired already!!find here and there,.call here and there!
really tired...

got to tell SRI college two word...
GOOD BYE...

6 may2009

today weke up 10.35am..thought want to helpmom,but my mom already finish everthing huh..

just suddenlly think about one friend!i feel myself really really stupid la!when need me that time call me when no need me that time throw me a side!huh.and i stupid untill help her everything!amd me myself?get nothing somemore waste my money and my time! and sometime give my dad say somemore!and when i ask for help..huh..will say this and that!
i promise myself will help those friend that really good to me and not 'li yong' me!

i don't want to think her in negative way!but i cannot!!!!huh...

5 may 2009

have a very bad news..about my college..yesterday that fellu call me and tell me that the class will change to night from 6pm-9pm,god!!!how i come back!!!!baga la...then my jie jie say  ask my dad to fetch lu...haiz..don't know how la..next week start already..haiz

today wake up 12.30pm..then online lu..nothing special..so boring..

4 may 2009

today wake up 9.15am..prepare myself to going that college again lu..wait almost 1 hour finally u83 bus come..huh..so tired..

luckly that driver tell me how to walk if not im sure sesat duno where already..

when reach sri hartamas...then i get down from the bus and find the college..

when want go back that time i really sesat..ask so many people where is the bus stop where is the bus stop...finally walk almost half and hour only found....

12.55pm..

u7..the most stupid bus...but i got no choice i must sit that bus.if not i got to wait untill 3pm..huh..

like last time from sri hartamas to titiwangsa

                     from titi to KL sentral

                     from KL sentral to old town..

                     almost...1 1/2 hour...

next week start school le...i think i got to wake up 7.30am..

huh...what to do paid already.

2nd may 2009..

erm today wake up 3pm..cause really very tired..

after finish my lunch..then i on9 ..saw a msg at friendste..huh..

that time i got a bit scare to open and feel want to delete that msg too..but i didnt do so.. cause i really wan t to know what he write..

he want me to be  his friend back

last time i already tell that we just be friend is he..want to do those thing make me feel angry.

now i still confuse not confuse is scare to made choice..i scare the history will come again..scare many thing, like not really believe on what he say anymore..huh..i really dont know..i really put down everything already..i want to keep on my life like that..cause i dont know when he will make sometime to scare me or maybe he want to play me..i dont know...in the msg he tell me that his still working at mid..but i never saw him....i really got a feeling cannot believe him anymore...

maybe im not going to care about that msg..cause i really cannot believe on  this guy anymore..

althought he want me to be his friend back..but i still feel we cannot close like last time..cause these thing already happen and really hurt me...i can forget those thing,in the same time i scare those thing will happen again...

1st may 2009

me and ling hwei.......

baga ling hwei ask me can take back or not the tag..

huh...only one word i could say now TIRED..

went for a volunteer for blood donation..this is the 2nd time i when to,this time can counted the most happy time for me,couse i meet a lot of friend..i called her as assunta,untill now i still dont know her name..couse never ask her...and got one auntie,called herself as 18 years old girl..quite a funny auntie..but when work she will be very serious..

then me ,yj,ys and lh...

ling hwei is the 1st time following us..so happy hope next year she will follow us again..

my job is..help people adjust the chair..and ect..

althought same with last year but this time is really diffirent from last time..

the most scary things is people complain say they wait so long..thids and that..but is becouse the nurse la...not our fault also...huh...

but really have a great time..

idiot gastric cuming again...but i tahan tahan and tahan untill the end..